Addiction.

It has finally become too much for me to take. I cannot accept this addiction anymore; it is too much to bear. I am no longer the person I once used to be, I cannot form any proper social relationships anymore, I cannot follow my own ambitions anymore, and I cannot realize my dreams. I am spiraling down a long shaft, without any walls to capture my emotions. I cannot seem to stop the spiral that ends in an inevitably abrupt stop. My decision is to accept the fact that I need professional help, it is not my first choice, but I feel it is the only choice. I cannot continue my life this way, I am falling apart, and the drugs are taking over.



Trapt - Enigma

Do we know how to get the message across
We turn the lights off to find a way out
No time to get through to grasp what was lost
Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark

Hey, I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding
I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you
What are you thinking, it's so misleading
Is it not for me to know, I think it's just hard for you to show

We never spoke in the words that we want
We turn the lights off to find a way out
We never chosen to keep what we've got
Don't turn the light off and leave me in the dark

Chorus

So hard for you to show
Why is it hard for you to show?

I thought it would be nice to lie down and close my eyes
It never occurred to me that I am already asleep (in your arms)

Don't be the one to be let go
Don't be the one to be alone
Don't be the one to be alone tonight

Hey I'm pleading, my soul is bleeding
I don't want to be left alone, not when I'm right next to you
What are you thinking, it's so misleading
I don't want to be left alone, I don't want to be left alone
No one wants to be left alone