I hate my life.

It has been an interesting three months. I have managed to get my girlfriend pregnant, lose said girl to my alcoholism, and manage to screw up many friendships. I guess you could say I have it all now, right? Guess not. Is this what the American dream is supposed to be? No. I always thought growing up that by the time I was 23 I would have a nice 2 car garage, picket fences, and two kids. What the hell is wrong with me? That only happens in the movies, and even then it's not perfect.

Damned Smoking

I had quite the interesting night Sunday. I was coughing blood, puking blood, and just generally not acting very well. I was sent to the hospital, and they found out that it was only an allergic reaction to cigarette smoking. (Asthmatic Bronchitis) They gave me an inhaler, and a prescription for some steroids. I do not plan to take the steroids. (Too many side effects)

I do not really have a problem with this, only that I have to quit smoking. I never knew smoking could cause depression, pain, and who knows what else I am feeling.

Two days of hell ...

   Wow, these last two days at work have been hell. I swear, servers quitting all over the place. New virii popping up all over the place. When will it all end? I mean, don't get me wrong - the more computer problems users have, the more money I make. It's just hectic to keep up with all of it.

Yet another long day at work.

   Yeah, yet another long day at work. A job that I love to hate. It really sucks when you work for a company, and they don't trust you at all. I guess that's what I get for working with a guy who does not trust a single person.

   Other than that, today hasn't been much to write home about. (Other than the fact that I ran out of smokes two hours ago, and I'm deadly cranky. :))

It's time to move into a new realm.

Well, it looks like I may be leaving the nest soon. My best friend (Rudy) wants me to move in with him and the rest of the boys. I'm not really too sure if I want to do that - on the simple premise that all they do over there is drink, be obnoxious, and break things. I have finally got my life on the right track and I am not sure I want to follow down the wrong road again. I guess we'll see how this turns out.

It's muggy as hell ...

I can remember back in the winter when I wanted it to be so hot that I couldn't stand it. Well I got my wish. Now I wish it was sorta winter time - or at least fall. (Fall if my favorite time of year, it's so pretty.)

It's amazing how we fall.

I never understood the reasonings why things happen in this life. It's as if somebody is pulling the strings on my marionette and I'm just along for the ride. Tonight is just one of those nights that I wish somebody would just cut the strings and allow my body to fall to the floor - limp, and broken.